隣にいるのに
He is just beside me
それでも寂しく感じることがある
Yet there are times I feel lonely
いつも一緒にいる人が夢に出てくることって結構あるよね
People whom I am always with often appear in my dreams
この夢もそんなかんじ
This dream is no exception
場所は日本
The place is in Japan
でも何だか懐かしい感じがする風景
But it was a nostalgic scene
現代の日本じゃなくて、昭和の匂いが漂う街
It was not modern Japan, but a street with atmosphere of the Showa period
そんな場所で彼と私と彼の友達３人で
In such a place, he, his friend and I, the three of us
仲良く日々を過ごしてる
We spend each day happily together
それに大きい２階建ての家に住んでいて
We live in a huge two storey house
お母さんが２人とお父さん３人も一緒に暮らしてた
We live together with 2 mums and 3 dads
ただ誰のお父さんとお母さんかはよくわからない
However, we have no ideas whose mums and whose dads they are!
昭和っぽい街で、家も古いくせに
Although it is on the street of the Showa period, and the house is so ancient
私達はMacを使って毎日遊んだり仕事したり
We are using Mac (yes, the Apple computer) everyday for play and for work
あり得ないでしょう、でも
Isn't that crazy? but
この変なギャップがまた楽しかったりした
In such weird contrast, we are having lots of fun
私はある日彼の友達と一緒にコンビニに買い物へ
（街の風景とコンビニがどうしてもマッチしてない.....）
One day, I went to the convenient store to buy something
(the convenient store did not match with the old street anyhow)
お菓子を買った後、家に戻ると彼がいなかった
We bought some snacks and when we got home, he was no where to be found
どこに消えたのか
Did he disappear to somewhere
部屋には彼の使ってるMacだけが残されていた
Only the Mac that he was using was left in the room
その時急に寂しくて寂しくてしょうがない気分にさらされた
Suddenly, a gush of loneliness blew all over me
彼の友達も泣いちゃって
His friend started to cry too
その瞬間からもうこの上ないくらい早いスピードで
From that moment, I started to run
走っていた
at a speed that I had never obtained
走って走って走って
I ran and I ran
どれくらい走り続けただろう
I wonder how far I had run
多分４日間くらい
Probably around 4 days
でも不思議なのは、あれだけ走っても
The amazing thing was, no matter how long I ran
見える風景はただ同じ場所ばかり
The place looked exactly the same.
体は疲れて足は重い
I started to feel tired and my legs were heavy
すると突然目の前に彼が見えた
Then suddenly, he appeared in front of my eyes
手を取ろうとして駆け足で近寄ろうとしたら
When I was about to run over to take his hand
目の前で見知らぬ女の子が倒れた
A girl, a stranger fell down before me
病気かな、私は必死でその子を助けようとしていると
"Is she sick?" I was about to desperately help the girl and then
彼はまたどこかに消えてしまった
He disappeared again
ああ、待ってよ
AArrgghhh Wait
って叫んだ時目が覚めた
I shouted and then I woke up
どうしようどうしよう
What should I do, what should I do
いなくなっちゃったよって、
He is gone, isn't he
自分が目が覚めたことも気づかず
I didn't even realize I was already awake
泣きそうになりながらもがいていたら
I was about to cry and
彼は普通に隣にいて
He was right beside me as normal
なんだ、いるじゃん、って
What? He is HERE
あれだけ必死に探していたけど実はこんなに近くにいた
I was so desperately looking for him but he was actually so close beside
夢の中で結構走ったせいで、体じゃなくて気分がどっと重い
Because I ran so much in my dream, it was not my body but feeling that was exhausted
誰のせい？この人のせいです
Who's fault? It is his fault
ということで、一発殴っておくことにした
Anyhow, I decided to give him one punch
そう、近くにいても寂しくなったり不安になったり
Yup, even it is so close, I feel lonely and insecure
または見るべきものが見えなくなったりすること
And things that are suppose to be there but somehow disappeared
結構普段あるんだと思う
Happen quite often I think
だから盲目に走り続けるだけじゃなくて
So let's not just continue blindly
よくよく自分の周りを見てみると
Take a good look around us
自分の探しているもの知りたいものが転がっているかもしれない
Things that you are looking for or things you would like know are probably just close by
でもこんな夢、ほんと疲れちゃうよ
But such dream, is really tiring
2010/3/7
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