甘えん坊の涙 A Cry Baby's Tears

そのほっぺに流れる涙は何かな

What is these tears flowing down my cheek

胸がぎゅーってなって

涙腺がこれでもかというくらい緩んでる

My heart skipped a beat

And my tear ducts started to overflow

色んな人に出会って

色んな経験をして

色んな考え方をもらって

Meeting many people

Having many experiences

Getting many ways of thinking

たっくさんの刺激を私の心を突いたからかもしれない

Probably my heart was shocked by these excitement

時々思う

私は何の役に立っているのか

誰のために生きているのか

私の存在は一体なんなのか

Sometimes I wonder

What is my role in life

For whom do I live

What on earth is my existence

人が生きて　人に出会い　何かを感じて　何かを生み出す

これを繰り返すこと

Life is about living, meeting people, have some kind of feels, waiting for something to happen and the process repeats itself

私はまだまだ子供みたいに甘えん坊かもしんない

I may be still a small child like a baby

かわいくない

素直じゃない

I am not adorable

I am not gentle

時々焼きもちなんかやいちゃって

Sometime I also get jealous

全然その気持ちは素敵じゃない

It is not cool at all

そんなの捨てちゃえ

I should get rid of all those

胸はって自分に自信持てる子は素敵だよ

もっとたくさん努力していこうよ

Only confident people who believe in themselves are cool

You should work harder

私が目指すのはどんな人？

What kind of person am I aiming to be?

踏み出すのは勇気がいるけど

踏み出しちゃえば大丈夫だよきっと

I have the courage to step forward

And it would be fine after the first step forward

甘えん坊の涙はもうそろそろおしまいにしなきゃね

I guess I have to stop being a cry baby soon

ほらまた Here it goes again

また

Here it goes again

広くて青い空に　ぽつん　って

In the big blue sky

白くてふわふわしてる雲がひとつ

There is one white fluffy cloud

ぽかぽかとのんびり一人旅してる

Cheerfully taking on a journey by itself

さびしくないの？

Aren’t you loney?

一人だよ？

Are you alone?

でもその雲は

But the cloud murmured

一人でも楽しいことはたくさんあるんだよ

There are lots of fun even if I am alone

それにおっきな空が一緒だから平気だよ

As long as I am with this big sky I am fine

一人じゃないよ　ってつぶやいてる

I am not alone

私だって

I wish that

そんなふうに思えるようになりたいな

I could think like that cloud

夢の話 No.5 Baby Factory

今日は子供の頃に見た夢をちょっと

Today I am going to talk about a dream that I had when I was a kid

私は風邪を引いて熱が出たとき

子供の頃から必ず見る夢がある

それは、いつ見ても全く同じ

When I was a kid,

Whenever I caught a cold or had fever

I would always have this dream

Each time, the dreams were exactly the same

私はある大きな病院の中にいる

とっても大きい、多分どこかの都市病院かな

内装もかなりきれいに設備されていて

なんだか最近建てられた感じがする

I was in this big hospital

It was really big, probably a hospital in a big city

The interior was also beautifully set up

It seemed like it has just been built recently.

私の姿は６歳くらい

今はもう大人だけど、夢の中では６歳の姿

I was 6 in the dream

Although I have grown up now, but in the dream I was still a 6 year old

私は病院の中をずーっと歩き回る

たくさん病室があって

私が必ず歩き回った先にたどり着く場所は

生まれたての赤ちゃんが眠っている

あのベビールームだ

I was wandering about in the hospital for a long time

There were many wards

The place that I must go to everytime

Is the place where all the new born babies were sleeping

みんな生まれたてだから

小さくて、弱々しくて

とっても可愛い

Because all the babies were just born

They were all so small and fragile

And extremely adorable

そのベビールームの横にはブルーの扉ががあって

私は必ずそのドアを開ける

At the side of the baby room there is a blue door

I would open that door everytime

開けた先には、なんと

広い広い工場が広がっているのだ

When I opened it,

It appeared to be a huge factory

その工場は何かって？

それはね

お腹の大きい妊娠したお母さんたちが

暖かい毛布がしいてある

ベルトコンベアーにみんな並べられて

一人一人、おもちゃみたいな機械に

お腹をぽんっと押されて赤ちゃんが生まれ

その赤ちゃんは小さな可愛いベットに

寝かされていくっていう

’赤ちゃん出産工場’なんだ

What kind of factory would that be?

Well,

There were many pregnant mothers with big tummies,

They were wrapped in warm towels

They were lined up on a conveyer belt

There were also these toy-like machines

One by one the machines press on the tummies of the women

And a baby was born

And the babies were transferred to these small cute beds for them to sleep

It is a BABY PRODUCING FACTORY

それは本当に大きい工場で

妊娠した母親はどれだけいるの

って訪ねたくなるくらいたくさんいる

It was really a huge factory

I wanted to ask how many

Pregnant women were there altogther

私はその工場に入ると、いつも

何だか寂しい気分になる

でもいっぱい可愛い赤ちゃんがいるから

あったかい気持ちにもなる

Everytime I entered into the factory

I always feel a sense of loneliness

But there were so many cute babies

There was also a sense of warmth inside

そして、その工場に入ったあと

必ず頭がボーッとなって

立っていられなくなると

変なぐねぐねした空間に吸い込まれて

Then, after entering the factory

I would stone there

Standing there

And then being sucked into another dimension

はって目が覚める

Suddenly I woke up

これが、私が熱をだして寝込んだとき

必ず見る子供の頃からの夢

This is a dream that I always saw when I was a kid

Whenever I had a fever

この夢を見るようになってのは

妹が生まれた病院にお祝いに病院に行った

あの日から

私はまだ６歳で、３つ下の弟もいたけど

妹も生まれたからしっかりしなきゃな、って

そう思ったあの日

今でも鮮明にあの日のことを覚えてる

I started to have this dream

Since the day I went to celebrate

The birth of my younger sister at the hospital

I was 6 and my brother who is 3 years younger were there too

That day I told myself

Since my younger sister is born

I have to work hard

だからかもしれない、この不思議な夢を見るようになったのは

This is probably the reason why I was having dreams like this. 

夢の話 No.4 Swimming like a Dolphin

夢だから体験できることって無限

Because it is a DREAM, there is nothing we cannot experience

私は小さい頃からイルカが好きで

イルカが泳いでるあの真っ青な海で

一緒に泳いでみたいななんて、想像したりした

I like dolphins since when I was a small girl

I often imagine swimming in the blue blue sea

Together with the dolphins

この日は寝不足でかなり疲れていたから

電車の中だったけど、彼の肩を借りて

少し目をつぶって一休みすることにした

That day I didn’t have enough sleep

So in the train, I borrowed his shoulder

Closed my eyes and took a little nap

眠りに落ちたのは一瞬だった

そして夢を見始めたのもほんとすぐだった

It just took me a moment to fell asleep

And almost immediately I started dreaming

私はイルカになって泳いでいた

でもそこは海じゃなくて一般的なプール

I became a dolphin and I was swimming

It is not the sea but just a normal pool

でも青くてきれいだったからいいや

But since it is blue and nice it doesn’t matter

多分あれは友達だったと思う

でも姿はイルカ

私は友達とイルカになってプールで競争していた

Probably that is a friend

But in the form of a dolphin

My friend and I turned in dolphins and we started completing in the pool

私は特に泳ぐことが得意ではないけれど

この日は（というかイルカになったからかな）

力を入れずにすごいスピードで泳げていた

もちろんイルカの友達も速い

I am not particularly good in swimming

But on that day (probably because I became a dolphin)

I am able to swim in high speed without much effort

Of course, my dolphin friend is very fast too

競争しているうちにムキになりすぎて

息継ぎができなくなってしまった

As I complete, I am holding on to my breath for too long

And I feel like I can no long breath

あっぷあっぷ

ああ

Appoo Appoo

Aarrghh

ぶっ

Buu

こんな音を実際に現実にもやっていた私

もしそこが自分の部屋や家の中だったらよかったけど

電車の中だ

恥ずかしい

前の人に見られていたら、私は確実に変な女の子

いくら夢の中で頑張っていたとはいえ

現実にまでやってしまっていたとは

何とも情けない

I am actually making these noises in real life

It is perfectly alright if I were in my room or at home

But I am in a train

How embarrassing

If the person in front saw me, probably he would be thinking I am one weird girl

It is not unusual that

When I try very hard in my dreams

That I am also doing so in real life

でもよくありますこういったこと

小さい頃から夢と現実がたまにわからなくなって

泣いたり、叫んだり、しゃべったり、歯を磨いたり.......

But such things often happen

Since young, I cannot tell dreams from reality

And I cry, I scream, I talk and I grind my teeth……

たくさん小さい頃の面白い夢があるので

また後々描いていきたいと思います＾＾

I had many funny dreams when I was younger

And I want to draw them out one by one

夢ってこわい

Dream is such a scary thing

夢の話 No.3 Shoplifting

疲れてるからなのか

Probably it was because I was tired

それともこれは自分の望んでること？？

Or it was something I really wanted to do??

今回はほんとに変な夢の話

This time is really a weird dream

台湾に旅行中に見た夢だから

It was a dream I had when I was travelling in Taiwan

やっぱり私は夢の中でも台湾にいた

So the setting was in Taiwan as well

でも変なのは景色が私の昔通ってた中学校の

But the place was around the junior high school

周りの風景でした

I used to go

なぜそこが台湾だと思ったのかわからないけど

I have no idea why I would think it was in Taiwan

気持ちは台湾、風景は中学校の近所

The feeling was in Taiwan but the scenery was around my junior high school

私は一人で中学校の近くの田んぼ道を歩いていると

I was walking alone along the paddy fields near my junior high school

台北にあった化粧品店があった

There appeared a Taiwan cosmetic shop

私は入ってすぐ、日焼け止めを探していた

I entered it and started looking for sun block cream

だって台湾はすごく蒸し暑くて日差しが強かったから

Because Taiwan was hot and the sun was shining strong

日焼け止めは今までに見たことない形で

The sun block cream was in a shape that I had never seen before

ピンク色のパッケージでとっても可愛かった

It had a pink package which was really cute

うん、これ欲しなと思った

Yes, I want this, I thought

でもその時、お金払うのがめんどうだなと思い

At that moment, I felt that paying for it was too troublesome

それを自分のカバンの中にそっと入れて

So I just slipped it into my bag

お店を出ようとした

And started making my way out of the shop

これって万引きだよね？

This is shoplifting, isn’t it?

自分でも分かっていながら、

Knowing I have done such a crime

店員にばれないようにそーっとお店を出ると

I got out of the shop trying not to be caught be the shop keeper

ビーーーーーーッと

Beeeeeeeeep

アラームが鳴ってしまった

The alarm sounded

あ、やばい

Oh, SHIT

そしてまた私は全速力で走った

I started to run at full speed

店員もまた私を捕まえるために全速力で追いかけてくる

The shopkeeper also started to chase behind

私は心の中で

I was thinking in my mind

台湾に旅行に来て万引きして捕まるなんてほんまのばかやろ

It would be really stupid to come for holiday in Taiwan and get caught for shoplifting

彼に顔向けできひん、どうしよう

I would have no face to face him, what should I do

アホなことした

I did something really silly

そう考え、泣きながら走っていた

As I was thinking that, I started to cry as I ran

私が逃げるために走っていたところは

The escape route that I was taking

なんと中学生の時によく部活で走っていたあの田んぼ道

Was the paddy field path that I had run during club activities while I was in junior high

そして、隠れるために中学校の近くの民家にまで

To hide myself

ずかずかと入ってった

I went into a residential house near the school

店員も負けじと追いかけてきていたが、

The shopkeeper was chasing behind

いつの間にかいなくなっていた

But somehow he had disappeared

安心したとき、彼が現れて

I let out a sigh of relief and HE appeared

今度は景色が台北の博物館に姿を変えていた

This time the scene had change into a museum in Taipei

自分が万引きしたことを話そうとしたが結局言えず

I was about to tell him about the shoplifting incident but in the end I didn’t

もんもんとした気持ちを抱えながら博物館を二人で歩いていく

Still with a sense of guilt, the two if us walked around the museum

そして博物館を見終わったらまた景色が変わって

After we had done with the museum, the scene changed again

台北の夜の街に変わっていた

It became the night street in Taipei

目の前には有名なクラブのLUXYがあった

In front of us was the famous LUXY club

そこにはセクシーな女性やいかにも麻薬をしてそうな悪ツラの男性

There were sexy girls and also bad guys that looked as if they were on drugs

いかつい黒人のガードマンからオカマまで

There were also black men who were the bouncers

様々な人が出歩き、そしてクラブに吸い込まれるように

There are people of all kind walking around and as if they were being sucked in

みんな入っていった

They all entered into the club

私たちも入ろうとしたけど、何故かクラブに入れてもらえない

We were also entering to the club but somehow we were being stopped

私は怒ってその黒人ガードマンと殴り合いの喧嘩を始めた

I got angry and started punching the black bouncer and started fighting

黒人ガードマンは結構な体つきをしていて、

The black bouncer had a pretty huge body

私よりも２倍近い身長だった

He is almost twice my height

ガードマンは私に大きな拳で殴りかかろうとして

The bouncer was punching me with his gigantic fists

私も負けじと殴り返そうとしたとき

I also returned him a few of mine, and then

目が覚めた

I woke up

うそ、勝ってクラブにはいれたかもしれないのに、、、

Oh no, I would have enter the club after beating the bouncer…….

かなり残念な気持ちだった

What a pity

それよりもまずなんで私は夢の中で万引きをしたのか

Anyway, why would I shoplift in my dream

恐ろしい黒人ガードマンと殴り合いなんかしたのか

And I could even put up a fight with the terrifying black bouncer

不思議でたまらなかった

How amazing

ああ、

Aarrggghh

もしかして私、こんなことしてみたいの？

Maybe I really wanted to try that?

いや、

Nope

そんなことないよね、うん、したくない

I don’t think I want to do that